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update 19/08
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hellu my loveliess <3
im so sorry i haven't been updating;; this week was common test week but thank god its over whew
//improbablygonnafailallmysubjectscraiis//
anyhoww how are ya'll :'>
this week has been stressful and motivating for me honestly because this was the week when i really woke up from all the motivational speeches i've been getting and i really want to do good for my subjects; even if their just tests and not the exams .
i realised that procrastinating and promising that we'll do better the next test/exam has never been inspiring because we'll procrastinate to the point we have reached the end of year exams of our graduating year and those years in school would've been a waste .
by the time i realised all these i thought, i cant keep saying things like, "oh, i still have end of year exams, its okay if i do bad for common test" and i was far behind the class and lessons .
i choose when and when not to listen in class during lessons and i had to do all the work at home or after school to consult my teachers .
i hated how i was lagging behind alot because i had so many doubts and questions .
on the night before i had my science tests, i was stressed out as i really wanted to score good for chemistry as i fucked up my chemistry class test really bad and i tried to understand and do some chemistry questions .
by the time i finished with chemistry, it was already 3am .
i freaked out because i have not touched on my biology chapters at all .
the past few bio lessons i did not pay attention in class and i had to catch up as well .
i decided not to sleep that night .
i only had 3 hours to revise and memorise my bio notes .
when i took my chemistry test, i was glad i understood how to do most of the questions .
however, during my biology test, i did not understand the questions and i couldn't comprehend what the questions was asking for .
me, being the blur and dumb me, i gave stupid answers .
when my biology teacher went through the answers right after our test with us, i could already tell i failed the paper .
the questions weren't stupid - i was .
it was probably my lack of sleep that i felt that my vision was obscured that day .
i was so depressed and upset and stressed .
in the morning when i was studying my biology notes i honestly felt like crying and going onto the bed to just sleep but i forced myself awake and told myself that this will all be over soon and if i stay up it would be worth it .
i wanted to go bonkers - just flip all my papers and throwing my test paper on the ground and stepping on it - i was frustrated and pissed .
i couldn't take it to the point i had to excuse myself from my friends to go to the toilet and cry my heart out .
i felt like all my effort has been washed away down a drain .
i was like a ticking time bomb - just waiting to explode .
i had no choice but to bottle it up because all these would've caused a drama .
i just couldn't handle the stress .
i've honestly never put in this much effort in studying before and i just fucked the paper up .
it was also a learning point for me however, and i had no one to blame but myself .
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if you've read till this far,
thank you :'>
if you're too lazy and didn't do so,
its fine i understand im lazy too #lazypeopleunite
sooo how was your day ? i hope ya'll are having a great one !
share it with me i'm open to conversations !!
please talk to me i have no friends :<
AHHAHAHAHAHAH ok bye
im so sorry i haven't been updating;; this week was common test week but thank god its over whew
//improbablygonnafailallmysubjectscraiis//
anyhoww how are ya'll :'>
this week has been stressful and motivating for me honestly because this was the week when i really woke up from all the motivational speeches i've been getting and i really want to do good for my subjects; even if their just tests and not the exams .
i realised that procrastinating and promising that we'll do better the next test/exam has never been inspiring because we'll procrastinate to the point we have reached the end of year exams of our graduating year and those years in school would've been a waste .
by the time i realised all these i thought, i cant keep saying things like, "oh, i still have end of year exams, its okay if i do bad for common test" and i was far behind the class and lessons .
i choose when and when not to listen in class during lessons and i had to do all the work at home or after school to consult my teachers .
i hated how i was lagging behind alot because i had so many doubts and questions .
on the night before i had my science tests, i was stressed out as i really wanted to score good for chemistry as i fucked up my chemistry class test really bad and i tried to understand and do some chemistry questions .
by the time i finished with chemistry, it was already 3am .
i freaked out because i have not touched on my biology chapters at all .
the past few bio lessons i did not pay attention in class and i had to catch up as well .
i decided not to sleep that night .
i only had 3 hours to revise and memorise my bio notes .
when i took my chemistry test, i was glad i understood how to do most of the questions .
however, during my biology test, i did not understand the questions and i couldn't comprehend what the questions was asking for .
me, being the blur and dumb me, i gave stupid answers .
when my biology teacher went through the answers right after our test with us, i could already tell i failed the paper .
the questions weren't stupid - i was .
it was probably my lack of sleep that i felt that my vision was obscured that day .
i was so depressed and upset and stressed .
in the morning when i was studying my biology notes i honestly felt like crying and going onto the bed to just sleep but i forced myself awake and told myself that this will all be over soon and if i stay up it would be worth it .
i wanted to go bonkers - just flip all my papers and throwing my test paper on the ground and stepping on it - i was frustrated and pissed .
i couldn't take it to the point i had to excuse myself from my friends to go to the toilet and cry my heart out .
i felt like all my effort has been washed away down a drain .
i was like a ticking time bomb - just waiting to explode .
i had no choice but to bottle it up because all these would've caused a drama .
i just couldn't handle the stress .
i've honestly never put in this much effort in studying before and i just fucked the paper up .
it was also a learning point for me however, and i had no one to blame but myself .
-
if you've read till this far,
thank you :'>
if you're too lazy and didn't do so,
its fine i understand im lazy too #lazypeopleunite
sooo how was your day ? i hope ya'll are having a great one !
share it with me i'm open to conversations !!
please talk to me i have no friends :<
AHHAHAHAHAHAH ok bye
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() Had alcohol
() Smoked a cigarette
()Kissed a member of the same sex
() Are/been in love
() Dumped someone
(x) Had/have a Crush on a person older than you
() Skipped class
() Seen someone/something die
() Had/have a crush on one of your deviantART friend
(x) Been on a plane
() Thrown up from drinking
(x) Eaten sushi
() Been in a mosh pit
()Been in an abusive relationship
()Taken pain killers
(x) Liked/loved someone who you can't have
() Gone mudding
() Killed a snake
() Stolen
() Been cheated on
(x) Been misunderstood
() Been suspended from school
() Had detention
() Been in a car/motorcycle accident
() Hated the way you look
() Witnessed a crime
() pole danced
() Felt like you were dying
(x) Cried yourself to sleep
() Paid for a Meal with only coins
(x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
() Made prank phone calls
() Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
() Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole
() Kicked a fish (I've slapped a fish too)
() Worn the opposite sex's clothes
() Sat on a roof top
() Screamed at the top of your lungs
() Gone streaking
()Visited jail (just for a school trip)
(x) Played chicken
() Been told you're hot by a complete stranger
() Broken a bone
() Made a porn video/got asked to make one
(x) Laughed so hard you cried
() Cried so hard you laughed
() Mooned/flashed someone
() Had someone moon/flash
(x) Cheated on a test
() Gone skinny dipping
() Been kicked out of your house
() Blackmailed someone
() Been blackmailed
() Been used
(x) Fell going up stairs
() Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten someone
() Licked someone
() Been shot at/or at gunpoint
() Flattened someones tires
() Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on (all the time)
() Got five dollars or less worth of gas
() stabbed someone
() done any drugs
(x) Made someone bleed [From a scratch, yeah..]
() Had sex in public
() Robbed someone
() Kissed someone
If you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm below average]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be dead]
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